Six years ago on January 15th, 2011, I remember signing up as a member of Yahoo! Answers. As the wrestling fan I once was, I remember looking around the wrestling section. I remember answering a few questions, and I chimed in with someone named “Prince of Phenomenal”. He linked me something and to be honest, I thought the lad was linking me a virus. But little did I know, his link is rather the start of a long journey. My story to this community started when I was in EWE and EAW, to begin with. I saw a bunch of people just doing the same thing, chatting and trying to have this competitive edge as to who would be the best among their peers. I saw a lot of people that were a lot like me such as music, sports and just talking about life. 13-year-old Nick envisions himself of being one day, being one of the guys that would be the moderators, the guy that was winning belts left and right but to also be a good member of the community. It was within my rookie year in which, I came across a lot of people whether it is EAW, EWE, IWF, WHW, LEGION and XMW because I admittedly wasn’t loyal to any e-fed, I just wanted to get the name “Nick Angel” out and across within this community. I won a few titles across a few e-feds and along the way, I envisioned myself of being apart of a community that’s had a lot of great people to come across. It is also within this community in which I wanted to do things to make the few people I came across proud of myself because I was inspired to be what they were. I wanted to be the Jaywalkers, the HBBs, the DDDs of the world during my rookie year. Within this community, I wanted to not just win titles, but also get recognition as an all-around e-fedder. I wanted to do things such as being a staff member, being in a stable, winning a tag title, winning a world title, do pretty much everything you can check off of a checklist. But I couldn’t do it if I didn’t have fun along the way with interacting with the few people that are still here for the six years I’ve been through with them. Looking back. I’ve done a lot of things I set myself to achieve as an e-fedder. For starters, I won titles dating back to my rookie year. I knew that people had faith on a 13-year-old Nick. Then I wanted to be a staff member and be a vital part of a creation that has a legacy. Yeah, I know, AWL doesn’t have the best of reputation. But looking back at it, I am proud of having a huge responsibility of making and running day-to-day operations for over a year as vice president. How many people can say that they have been a staff member while making their own entity for over a year? Another thing I accomplished was just being a prominent member of a stable, something I actually struggled to have within the first two years of my e-fed career. As faith has it, I not only was a prominent member of a stable, but I also was apart something I was proud of at the time being: THOR. I’ve wanted to win a tag title to see where I could stand in the tag team division and you can say, check that off of my checklist. I realized that maybe one day, I can win myself a world title, not for myself. But to make a lot of people proud of me.

Somewhere along the way, I made a decision that a lot of people judged me as a person. Yeah, I made a “decision” between two e-feds. It is because of that decision, a lot of people had this image of me being a quitter as I could easily quit apparently in the eyes of many. It was in the eyes of many, people called me a lost cause and you know? I was heartbroken that people called me many things. But I want to remind a lot of people, it’s not the cards you dealt with, but how you play the hand. I can say looking back, it would’ve been easy for me to burn a lot of bridges since I felt like a lot of people targeted me because of my voice, felt easy for people to picked on me that I am more prone to quit because things don't go my way in booking. It would’ve been easy for me to sever all the ties and just leaves in disgrace. I do remember that in the event that I do succeed quite briefly in my third and final stint out here in EAW, I remember that my brief success was rather slandered in front of everyone out in public, on the forums and on the chat. My character for better or worse hasn’t developed a lot of traction as I’ve been booked as if I am a utility player by being all over the place.

But in hindsight, for as disappointing third stint I had booking wise, that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t be too whiny about how I see things in EAW. I remember I didn’t want to do anything with e-feds after AWF has ceased to exist. And then, my real life popped up as a friend of mine committed suicide, I dealt with various stuff with my parents, I felt like it was toxic to like a certain girl. I felt alone in real life, I felt depressed. I felt that I have no identity or no hope about life in general. I reluctantly joined EAW because I wanted to know what it is like to even have a grasp of what it is like to be apart of a community, something I lacked for months during my junior year of high school. For what it is worth, for all the stuff I dealt with people calling me a lost cause, I still remember the people that were there by my side when I dealt with a lot of shit that no one should go through. It is because the people that were by my side, they didn’t see me as not just a friend, they saw me as a someone. I didn’t know who I was whenever I came back to EAW the third and final time as a human being. But in hindsight, being apart of this community for good or bad, they gave me a sense of hope, a sense of that there is a belonging in the real world, and for what it is worth? Being apart of this community gave me a sense of purpose that was non-existent, when I, myself was too thinking about giving up on life. It’s not for everyone, but in hindsight, I am glad that I have gone through the adversary of hardly gaining anything at all in my third stint in EAW, but still promo in the hopes that somehow, someway, my name will be called upon to greatness. I know instead of being entitled or spoiled, I know that I can say that I’ve gone through the adversary of starting over with nothing. It may not be my most accomplished stint, but in hindsight, it is indeed my most transformative as a person if I am being honest. I knew who were truly there for me when I was at my lowest of lows in terms of status and I learned that not every situation deserves a reaction. From what I learned, I just learned to be the better man when I could’ve been a pariah.

Unfortunately, I will be celebrating my 19th birthday as a alumni to this community. A month ago, I felt that I contributed just about everything to the community and I asked a few of my friends, DEDEDE, Ken, Y2Impact, Kendra and HBB if they are proud of what I’ve done to the community. You see, I may not win a world title in EAW, but I can live if the people that mean the closest to me are proud of me and will support whatever decision I’ll do. The likes of DEDEDE, Ken, Y2Impact, Kendra and HBB, they were indeed disappointed in my intent, but they understood my decision and are indeed proud of what I’ve done for the community. And my decision was also a whole lot easier due to my real life circumstances. My real life circumstances consist of one that is adulthood. Of the upcoming obstacles, I will go through, I will be pursuing an internship with the Dallas Cowboys due to my major of business management and the fact that I will have an associate degree by summer's’ time. It is indeed my dream to be a marketing manager but it is also my dream to be working for my favorite team in the NFL while the Dallas Cowboys provides me a job that is not minimum wage along with paying for my tuitions as they are partners with the University of North Texas. I will be transferring from community college to the University of North Texas in order to pursue a career. Assuming that my girlfriend does not go, psychopath, I will be approaching a two years anniversary with her this April. For the people that do know what it is like being in a long-term relationship, it does indeed get more serious when you’re with someone you’ve known and loved for a long time. Lastly, my parents retired last month. I know my parents will get their retirement handouts and live out on 1K income a month, but they were the one that has been paying for my living, my tuitions for community college, basically they were the ones that got me pretty comfortable for eighteen years of my life. It's time to repay them the love that they gave me and I want them to live their final years out in happiness as they have survived the Khmer Rouge genocide, became refugees from their homeland and gone through the steps of trying to make a living in America. Adulthood has indeed hit me. That being said, friends and foes alike, it’s been a rollercoaster ride of almost six years. But it all has to stop at some point. Times come and go, but memories last forever. The memories stop here. 

To all the peoples that made the memories worthwhile: 

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