I don't know what compelled me to even post it but it's something I've been wanting to get off my chest, so to speak and just let it all out. But yeah...just to give a little background about myself for people who don't really know who I am. But my real name is Ryan and I'm currently training to become a pro fighter and a pro wrestler and I'm currently working retail and I have been for the past two years of my life. But before all of that I have spent the majority of my time e-fedding and I have been fedding for the past 4-6 years maybe (give or take) and it's something I extremely enjoyed and it has gotten my mind off a lot of things. I never was the type of guy that was interested in anything else aside from wrestling or fighting and this was a muse that increased my obsession with wrestling and whatnot be surrounded by like minded people who also enjoyed wrestling as much as I do. I have been in numerous feds and some were really good and some were pretty awful but regardless of the fact I was around the same group of people doing something I generally enjoyed. I have been in feds like FWE, AWO, SWE and so on and so forth but when I got to EAW something felt off about this place and I'm not talking about currently but around 2013 or 2012 when I was here for a VERY brief time it didn't really feel right, I couldn't put my finger on it but I just shrugged it off and I left for a bit and then I came back around the end of 2013 and became really active in 2014 as well and honestly I hit a niche in my fedding "career" that I never really been expose to before and I felt super comfortable and confident with my promos that I would post one promo after another and another and I would feel super good because I was having fun. Fast forward to now or last year I have notice a change within myself that I'm not having that same fun anymore like I use to. As people would notice I would either no show for my matches or just very few promos and whatnot but I can honestly say that fedding isn't fun to me like it use to be. It may be people taking it super serious and forget that this is all fake and this is just entertainment purposes or maybe I have invested soo much time and energy in this place and haven't reaped any "real" benefits from it like compelling storyline or feeling that I'm an important member of the roster and whatnot and like my devotion and loyalty to this fed has been undervalued and gone unappreciated. I can't necessarily pinpoint where this decrease has happened but it hit pretty hard and it maybe time for me to either just step away for a while and recollect myself or just stop entirely. I hate the idea of quitting since I never had the opportunity to become a world champion or people never really wanted to get behind me or wanted to invest in me like some people. I've always believed that hard work pays off eventually but there comes a time and you think to yourself is something like this is really worth it. I have been disrespected in this fed numerous of times, I have been told I'm not good enough or that I'm not ready and whatnot and these aren't really the reasons why I have been contemplating on leaving entirely or wanting to take a break. But it's gotten to the point where I have been in numerous of feds and have literally given my all and then some and have neglected a lot of things going on in my life including stuff that has been going on in my immediate family to appease people here (here in a general sense) and show them that I can be counted on regardless what goes on in my personal life. Maybe that's the mistake I've made since I came here and that I wanted to appease people so much that hopefully someone will get behind me and see how valuable of a person I am to this fed or any fed I join. But it seems if you aren't surrounded by the "right" people or befriend certain people then you might not even make it or get the spots you've worked so hard for. Maybe I'm not a good enough promoter or a good enough ass kisser but it sucks that you can't really enjoy something that you have sacrificed all the free time you have had and not get anything from it. I don't know where my head is at right now or if you even take this as me quitting or just me taking a break but as of right now the passion of promoting and being a proud member of EAW has been sapped out of me. I felt like I have given everything I had in terms of enthusiasm and positivity and whatnot to this fed and that I have nothing left to give anymore. Sooo yeah that pretty much sums it up and also I want to thank Ken (Lannister) and Ryan (Mr.DEDEDE) for being there for me and also believing in me to a certain degree. Sorry that I couldn't elevate myself to the positon I want to be but hopefully sometime soon I'll get there when it's all said and done.

Sad to hear you feel this way. I personally liked your work in perticular the stuff you were posting for shock value. I hope this is just you feeling a little bit burnt out on things, and hopefully a quick break away will reenergize you ( it did during the time that I had to step away). I respect the hell out of you man and wish you the best where ever you may end up

tl;dr

I always enjoy your promos and I always enjoy talking to you. Hopefully you'll get your passion back soon. No matter what descision you would make though, I'll still respect it.

bye bye rawbie

This post is spaced about as well as your promos.

Spoiler:

Take a break, refresh yourselves and if you feel like coming back again, do so.

Take a break. Have a Kit Kat. Return better than ever

Hope you do return, RyAngeMarco. And hopefully while away from all this you can achieve your goals and dreams! Take care!

I don't know what to say, Ryan. I'm a little disappointed you feel this way, but I don't want to be that guy who acts selfish based on this. I've always respected the hell out of you man, and loved working this storyline with you the past couple of months and was really looking forward to seeing how your character was going to evolve down the track. It was a fun ride with you Ryan. Take as much time as you need to re-energize and regather yourself if you feel like you just need to take a break. If you feel like this might be a permanent move, then all the best my brother. You've got a lot of shit happening in your life that I just know you're going to jump straight into it no questions asked. 



Good luck, Rawbie!

I was actually looking forward to facing you. I hope you do come back