First off I want to say some people have known me as Mexi (Like Senn knows me) or Ari on here before but let me clear something up that I told one member already. I am not a natural born girl I am what one would call Transgender which means I am progressing myself into that role. I am male to female but have just started my journey and I've known this for the last seventeen years.

I have hid this because of fear of rejection from my family and over the last few months I've been trying to come out to people and start my road hence my lack of doing promos or appearing on sometimes. I've been struggling to get myself on track and be me. I don't want to lie to anyone anymore and the fact I said I was a girl to people is true just not naturally born but inside naturally so.

My name was Nick but I go by Nikki. I wanted to get this out there so it can help you understand and help me to be honest. I've lost friends, been trying to not breakdown, and find out all I need to do. I am an emotional person and I've had a hard time telling people but I am being honest here on the efed now.

This is the real reason I haven't been in chat i fear rejection after having hid whom I was and I didn't want to build up some reputation as a liar. Now to Haruna I am sorry that I didn't say more to you I did tell you my name was Nikki that is the truth because that is who I truly believe I am.

I would like to say sorry to everyone if I said anything otherwise to who I am in chat and hope I can be forgiven this is me the real Ariana aka the real Nikki

-Araina Lopez
   -(Nikki Martinez)

Look. 

We have gay people, bi people, people who have been in prison, all kinds of people with different walks of life among us. Hell, if you've seen some of the threads that I have had thrown my way the past two weeks you know I'm someone with a criminal record myself.

Don't worry at all about being accepted by us. Come and hang out and be who you are without shame or guilt.

It takes a lot of courage to do what you just did. I hope you stick around more and I hope this place can be somewhere you can come and be comfortable and just let loose as an outlet for everything

Being transsexual isn't or something to hide from around here, and you certainly shouldn't feel ashamed. DDD has no shame for half the stuff he says and that stuff is way worse than being a transsexual by a long shot.

No judgement here.

I love you! Be who you are!

I don't want to be offensive, and I don't want it to sound like I'm making light of the situation by changing the topic, it's completely fine if your transgender but I'm completely curious if you're Nikki Nevermore? I'd be stunned if it was a mere coincidence that we had a trans character called Nikki, and you're name is Nikki.

If you are Nikki Nevermore, did you feel your character was not treated correctly that you left?

I am not that person

The toughest endeavors that you'll have to go through are not on this message board.  I'll be more than happy to support you in any way, and I'm fortunate to work with a trans at my job and she is one of my dearest friends to this day. The reality laying outside your windows are going to be the most challenging but don't be afraid to vent, ask for help, or laugh with us.  You have friends here.

It takes courage to open up the way that you just did, so you get major props for that. One thing you don't have to worry about here is not being accepted. Hopefully, this thread was the group hug that you needed.

Be proud of who you are. We have absolutely no right to judge you or anything about you!

This took alot of guts to admit. You've earned the utmost respect (as much as that might not mean ) from me.

Continue to promo, and be a great and productive member of this fed. I know that one day, you have the potential to climb the ladder and become Vixen's champ

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  i love you bb

You got nothing to worry about. Be yourself always and fuck what the world thinks nobody has any right to judge you.

Mexican Samurai wrote:

The toughest endeavors that you'll have to go through are not on this message board.  I'll be more than happy to support you in any way, and I'm fortunate to work with a trans at my job and she is one of my dearest friends to this day. The reality laying outside your windows are going to be the most challenging but don't be afraid to vent, ask for help, or laugh with us.  You have friends here.

I'm glad you posted here because I thought when she said people knew her as Mexi she was saying you and her were the same person.

To Ariana, I give zero fucks if you are transgender. Do what you wanna do. I'd be shocked if there aren't other people who are secretly transgender in EAW. I bet most if not all of the Vixens are.

TLA wrote:

Mexican Samurai wrote:

The toughest endeavors that you'll have to go through are not on this message board.  I'll be more than happy to support you in any way, and I'm fortunate to work with a trans at my job and she is one of my dearest friends to this day. The reality laying outside your windows are going to be the most challenging but don't be afraid to vent, ask for help, or laugh with us.  You have friends here.

I'm glad you posted here because I thought when she said people knew her as Mexi she was saying you and her were the same person.

To Ariana, I give zero fucks if you are transgender. Do what you wanna do. I'd be shocked if there aren't other people who are secretly transgender in EAW. I bet most if not all of the Vixens are.

I'm sorry...what?

Carlos Rosso wrote:

TLA wrote:

Mexican Samurai wrote:

The toughest endeavors that you'll have to go through are not on this message board.  I'll be more than happy to support you in any way, and I'm fortunate to work with a trans at my job and she is one of my dearest friends to this day. The reality laying outside your windows are going to be the most challenging but don't be afraid to vent, ask for help, or laugh with us.  You have friends here.

I'm glad you posted here because I thought when she said people knew her as Mexi she was saying you and her were the same person.

To Ariana, I give zero fucks if you are transgender. Do what you wanna do. I'd be shocked if there aren't other people who are secretly transgender in EAW. I bet most if not all of the Vixens are.

I'm sorry...what?

I don't need to explain myself to you. This is a thread about accepting Ariana for who she is let's stick to the topic.

TLA wrote:

Carlos Rosso wrote:

TLA wrote:

Mexican Samurai wrote:

The toughest endeavors that you'll have to go through are not on this message board.  I'll be more than happy to support you in any way, and I'm fortunate to work with a trans at my job and she is one of my dearest friends to this day. The reality laying outside your windows are going to be the most challenging but don't be afraid to vent, ask for help, or laugh with us.  You have friends here.

I'm glad you posted here because I thought when she said people knew her as Mexi she was saying you and her were the same person.

To Ariana, I give zero fucks if you are transgender. Do what you wanna do. I'd be shocked if there aren't other people who are secretly transgender in EAW. I bet most if not all of the Vixens are.

I'm sorry...what?

I don't need to explain myself to you. This is a thread about accepting Ariana for who she is let's stick to the topic.

Fair enough...but I do find it abit strange you're saying so many of the vixens are transgender when I'm certain there are actual young women playing most of them and males playing the rest. That's all.

Carlos Rosso wrote:

TLA wrote:

Carlos Rosso wrote:

TLA wrote:

Mexican Samurai wrote:

The toughest endeavors that you'll have to go through are not on this message board.  I'll be more than happy to support you in any way, and I'm fortunate to work with a trans at my job and she is one of my dearest friends to this day. The reality laying outside your windows are going to be the most challenging but don't be afraid to vent, ask for help, or laugh with us.  You have friends here.

I'm glad you posted here because I thought when she said people knew her as Mexi she was saying you and her were the same person.

To Ariana, I give zero fucks if you are transgender. Do what you wanna do. I'd be shocked if there aren't other people who are secretly transgender in EAW. I bet most if not all of the Vixens are.

I'm sorry...what?

I don't need to explain myself to you. This is a thread about accepting Ariana for who she is let's stick to the topic.

Fair enough...but I do find it abit strange you're saying so many of the vixens are transgender when I'm certain there are actual young women playing most of them and males playing the rest. That's all.

Almost as strange as your need to white knight for the vixens at every opportunity even when it's obvious I was joking.

TLA wrote:

Carlos Rosso wrote:

TLA wrote:

Carlos Rosso wrote:

TLA wrote:

Mexican Samurai wrote:

The toughest endeavors that you'll have to go through are not on this message board.  I'll be more than happy to support you in any way, and I'm fortunate to work with a trans at my job and she is one of my dearest friends to this day. The reality laying outside your windows are going to be the most challenging but don't be afraid to vent, ask for help, or laugh with us.  You have friends here.

I'm glad you posted here because I thought when she said people knew her as Mexi she was saying you and her were the same person.

To Ariana, I give zero fucks if you are transgender. Do what you wanna do. I'd be shocked if there aren't other people who are secretly transgender in EAW. I bet most if not all of the Vixens are.

I'm sorry...what?

I don't need to explain myself to you. This is a thread about accepting Ariana for who she is let's stick to the topic.

Fair enough...but I do find it abit strange you're saying so many of the vixens are transgender when I'm certain there are actual young women playing most of them and males playing the rest. That's all.

Almost as strange as your need to white knight for the vixens at every opportunity even when it's obvious I was joking.

I think you took my reply a little too serious. I wasn't trying to cape. Relax.

That took a lot of courage to say, I don't know much about transgender people but I respect you for your honesty as well as your decision for going through with the process; and hope you achieve a lot of happiness in your new skin.

As for everyone else who commented, I'm extremely proud of you all.  It feels good to see positivity on the board for a change.

Hades wrote:

That took a lot of courage to say, I don't know much about transgender people but I respect you for your honesty as well as your decision for going through with the process; and hope you achieve a lot of happiness in your new skin.

As for everyone else who commented, I'm extremely proud of you all.  It feels good to see positivity on the board for a change.

I second this.

A lot of people have a few things they have to climb through to express their true self and it takes a lot of courage for people like you to express who you really are. EAW is home to everyone no matter who they are. You should be proud of confessing what you are because that takes a lot of courage especially on the internet but I hope you know we won't care what you are because we will treat each other equally  You are who you want to be and if people don't appreciate that, they're not human. Major thumbs up to you

Tyler Parker wrote:

Hades wrote:

That took a lot of courage to say, I don't know much about transgender people but I respect you for your honesty as well as your decision for going through with the process; and hope you achieve a lot of happiness in your new skin.

As for everyone else who commented, I'm extremely proud of you all.  It feels good to see positivity on the board for a change.

I second this.

I third this.

TLA wrote:

Tyler Parker wrote:

Hades wrote:

That took a lot of courage to say, I don't know much about transgender people but I respect you for your honesty as well as your decision for going through with the process; and hope you achieve a lot of happiness in your new skin.

As for everyone else who commented, I'm extremely proud of you all.  It feels good to see positivity on the board for a change.

I second this.

I third this.

Fourthed

I can honestly say that I don't care, in the kindest possible way. You do you, and that's all that matters.